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And the next big event is confirmed for you all.
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[X] Try to dissuade her. Higan wants to judge you, but... you like it here. Besides, you promised Yuyuko that you wouldn't leave her, and judgment might interfere with that...
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You take a deep breath and steel yourself. You doubt that she's going to respond well to what you're about to say, but it has to be done.
"Siki."
She stares expectantly at you.
"I don't think I can help Higan."
"We are not asking you to provide us with your soul immediately. If you do not know where your soul is located, we would merely ask that you search with us."
The response is lightning fast, emotionless and practiced. You sigh deeply; this isn't going to be easy.
"That's not what concerns me. I honestly don't think that I can help Higan."
An uncomfortable silence falls over the room, and you fidget a little. Siki's gaze hardens as she leans forward in her seat, her hands clasped before her. When she speaks, her voice is dry and sharp.
"Explain."
"Alright, here it goes... I have no incentive to assist the court, and every reason not to. To start with, I... promised Yuyuko that I wouldn't leave her, even if the problem with judging me was resolved."
"You shouldn't make promises you can't keep."
Siki's flat response sends a pang of irritation through you.
"I don't intend to break that promise. She's been wonderful to me, and I have to confess that I do enjoy spending time with her. More than that, she... well, I don't want to speak for her, so I'll just say that I think I'm in a unique position to help her. If I'm right, if I'm the only person who can help her like this, then I won't abandon her. I won't do anything that jeopardizes my ability to stay with her, either."
Siki remains silent, her expression unreadable.
"Aside from that, I like it here. Selfish as it is, I can't bring myself to want to leave. I've had fun these past few days, and I've made friends. Youmu and Yuyuko, the Yakumo family, the Prismrivers, even Komachi and... well, you. I like these people, and I'd like to be able to get to know them even better than I do now. I want a li-- no, I want an afterlife, and all the freedoms that entails."
"What about those who mourn your passing in the Outside World?" Siki's counter is swift.
What about them? It might just be because you've died yourself, but...
"I'm dead." To your surprise, your voice hardens to a tone that matches hers. "From the moment humans are born, we spend our lives dieing. It's inescapable, with or without a court out here to keep track of it. My time came up and I died, and they'll have to cope. I could haunt them, but what would that accomplish beyond burdening them? More than that, what will reincarnation mean to them? Even if I am reincarnated, I won't return as anything they can recognize, and I certainly won't remember them. As far as they're concerned, I'm gone and I'm not coming back."
Siki blinks as if she were surprised, though her face quickly regains its neutral expression. You're a bit taken aback yourself. You're not sure where that came from, but... it's true isn't it? Reincarnation won't bring you back to those people, and in a stricter sense it won't be you that comes back. That opens up a whole other can of philosophical worms, though, and...
No. Save that for later.
"Then, what will you do about your soul?"
Siki's piercing gaze bears down on you.
"Nothing."
Siki continues to stare at you, as though she expects more than that.
"I don't seem to need it. I've gotten on just fine without it so far, haven't I?"
"You don't seem to understand the importance of the soul. Without it, a mere spirit like you is..." She trails off, staring off into space. Shutting her eyes, she sits straight once again. "This discussion is over."
Her declaration catches you off guard.
"Pardon?"
"This discussion is over."
A swell of anger bubbles up inside your chest.
"Why?" You spit the words out with an almost acid tongue.
"Because now I won't have to speak for the court."
Siki sighs and slumps in her chair, her tension dissipating. Her eyes ease open, the emerald pools no longer frigid as ice, but warm and weary. That aura of weariness that she projected at the party returns in full force. She smiles a tired smile at you.
"Siki?"
She gives you a slow nod in response.
"I'm sorry." Her voice is tender and compassionate, a stark departure from the hard tone she's been using. "I've cut our meeting short. It may seem unprofessional, but I..." She trails off and removes the ornate hat from her head, setting the headpiece on her desk, atop the golden stick.
"It's fine..." You find yourself a little stunned by the complete change in her attitude.
"Please listen carefully to me," she stands from her seat and walks around the desk to kneel on the ground in front of you, "this is something that I very much want to say."
"Alright."
"There are many different views on the importance of the soul." She reaches up and clasps your hand in both of hers, leaning her head forward to rest against them. "Higan is set in its ways as a bureaucracy, and has taken one view. I won't say that they're right. I won't say that they're wrong. For now, it is enough for you to know that Higan is determined to process your soul, and that it is considered to be of the utmost priority. Some other time, perhaps when I am not so weary as this, I will explain that view to you. Until then, might I suggest consulting with some others on their view? Komachi, even your hostess - gather view points from many people, and try to think about them. You are in an interesting position as a spirit without a soul, and you may have insights that others do not."
"More importantly, I want you to know, no matter what anyone else may say," she raises her head and looks you in the eye, "the desire to be free to make your own choices, the desire to help someone, even if it troubles you or draws the ire of others - that is good behavior. I can divide someone's deeds into black and white, and as such I am the one who knows most that it is not always the answer, no matter how much easier it would be."
Her gentle lecture, and the sincerity in her words causes a stirring in your chest. If Komachi reminded you of an older sister, then Siki evokes the image of a caring mother.
"Consider yourself, consider those around you, and consider the connections between you all. This is the good deed you can do right now."
Siki stands, still smiling at you. She seems much more relaxed now, as though a weight has been taken off her shoulders.
[ ] Excuse yourself. Let Siki have some peace. She must feel drained after all this.
[ ] Ask to stay with her for awhile. She doesn't seem to enjoy all of her work. Maybe you can help her relax a little.