13:39, DAY THE FIRST Moved to abandoned churchhouse. Dusty, smell of water and moss, yet in proper order. Sense of peace. Why? I care not for gods.
Must consider further. Must continue to move; must get outside of village limits.
13:43, DAY THE FIRST Successfully left town. Saw no one, heard nothing. Will write more when distance away improves.
13:48, DAY THE FIRST Apologies for handwriting; taking notes while walking. Will be brief; may expound later.
No shots. 40 min. since Belt/Powder. Too late? Must try. Priceless opportunity.
Interview? Difficult. Impossible? No.
Gunpoint? No, doubtful. Risky.
Ultimatum? No. No trust. No proof. No truce.
"We do not negotiate with terrorists."
Back to the gun. More later.
13:57, DAY THE FIRST So quiet... Too quiet? Cliché.
The silence is real. Tangible. Oppressive. "The unknown." Fear? No. no fear. Humans fear what they do not understand. However, do not fear what you do not know until you know it. If you do not know it, you may fear that which is not real. That which is not real cannot harm you and need not be feared.
Something ahead. Must return to gun.
14:04, DAY THE FIRST Wounded female, side of pond. Signs of movement. Sounds of crying/pain.
Wounded man ahead. 50 meters? Gasping two words: "Sniper. Close."
Must write faster.
Man wounded, does NOT shoot, gives others advice? Illogical. Dying? Delirious? Given up hope? Unknown.
Must ask him. Female, possibly young. Wounded, crying. Riding bicycle, scraped knee. Clichéd normally, but not here. Young girl killing for selfish desires? If so brave, then why weeping? If so cowardly, then why even here?
Must ask her. Sniper? May assume so; previous reports confirm. Cannot write long. Likely amateur, cannot hit weaving target with low ammo stock. Fire shots as distraction to frighten and intimidate; chance of returning fire low. Flushing out optional but preferred.
Moving now. If killed here, this is last report. Future reader, you may think me a fool, risking much for the sake of empty curiosity. Then I ask you, how does a fool learn, if not by risking much to learn what is uncertain?
Stay there, then. Stay in your chair, your bed, your house, your place of work. Stay safe. Risk nothing. Tell me I waste my life, while you waste yours.
The world is a gamble, one's life a wager on the table. Now do I roll the dice.
14:12, DAY THE FIRST Man is Sean Judd Eckers. "Chamber"
- Do-gooder
- Middle-class
- Idealist
- Seeks fairness.
Dying. Worthless to me. Explain later.
14:30, DAY THE FIRST Still alive.
It was... satisfying. I will know what this means when I reread it.
Must expound further. I have a young girl.
- Teenage years.
- Pronounced red hair.
- Below average height.
- Legs and feet lacerated with shrapnel.
- Weapon missing.
- Likely Belt, wounded by Powder
She is still alive. Consciousness tentative. Breathing ragged, often whimpering. In a great deal of pain. Delirious. Does not answer questions but reacts obliquely to words. Hearing damage from explosion likely; whispers have no reaction.
Excerpts (often repeated):
- "I don't want to die"
- "Hurts so bad"
- "I'm sorry"
- "I didn't mean it Rosie"
- "I don't want to be the best anymore"
- "Please help me, someone"
She piques my interest, someone so young being here. Much potential. However, cannot let her bleed to death before I learn anything of value. Too much to write; no time. Must get to work.
14:44, DAY THE FIRST "The best-laid schemes of mice and men go oft awry." - Steinbeck, taken from Scot poem
Powder appears from the aether. Old man, grizzled beard. Tries to make peace, "finish what he started" with Belt. He left her for dead and returns to nurse her to health. A man with a conscience.
He watches me as I write this, assuming that my eyes never veer away from the paper. Can you read this, Mr. Powder? Do you see what I am writing right now? I think you are going to die, and it will be because you treat those around you like people.
None of you are people. You are nameless archetypes with a label conveniently provided for us by the creators of this experiment. Three days is insufficient time for me to care about you, thus I see no reason to try. Your actions are unsurprising at best, and outright predictable at worst. Nothing new under the sun.
Prove me wrong. I welcome it, I relish it, I
yearn for it! Show me something different! Show me something I do not expect, that will make me think, that will make me
imagine! Smash my hypotheses to dust! I implore you! Make me care about your existence in the least bit! BECOME PEOPLE! LIVE, FOR ONCE IN YOUR LIFE! MAKE ME PROUD THAT I AM A HUMAN!
I will wait for that day. Until then I am forced to fabricate my own forms of enjoyment.
I digress.
14:52, DAY THE FIRST I neglect my journal proper.
Powder wishes to be the "good Samaritan" to this girl. For the moment I indulge him. He foolishly agreed to disarm himself as per my request. I am a wild card, a dangerous opponent; a smart man would not give up his weapon in such a position. I sit atop it, and keep my own pistol ever within my lap. He
will try something. Perhaps only once, perhaps not for hours, perhaps painfully obvious, but he will try to get the better of me. I will not let down my guard.
Powder no longer an obvious threat, I allow him to administer treatment to the girl; gives me more time to write, and observe. He knows something of first aid it seems; does not remove shrapnel immediately. Would aggravate wound & cause more bleeding. Applies tourniquet and tears bandages from overshirt.
I return to archetypal commentary.
Chamber - Bleeding out from chest wound; likely will not last till sundown. Explained what he could when I ran to him. Met Powder early, gun taken, wandered towards sound of Belt, got lost, wandered again, followed sounds of gunfire, shot by Bolt from the South. Wished to get contractors to talk out differences and reach fair agreement. Told me Powder was " a good man".
An idealist in a realistic world. Chases hope, sees the good in people. Even dying holds to his principles. A boring hero in pauper's clothing mentality. Black and white. Nothing worth staying by his side for. Let him ruminate on his life in agony; it may open his mind to a more realistic worldview.
Bolt - Took two shots to hit Chamber; did not even attempt to shoot at me. Amateur sniper. Do not hide from an amateur sniper. Do
not run in
the same direction; sniper shoots in front of you. Change trajectory constantly. Ran a perimeter around area south of lake while shooting pistol as diversionary measure. Found no Bolt but was not shot at. Unsure as to current position; may become problematic later.
Note: Shot twice at Chamber, hit him, but did not kill him, and has not shot again. Must clearly have a good view of him right now, must clearly know he is not dead, Chamber obviously easy to hit, yet has not fired to obtain the kill.
Why?
Must consider further. Powder - Met at approx. 14:35. Man of few words and determination. Perhaps pretends to be tougher than he really is so as not to appear weak and old in the eyes of others. Visibly flustered at my calm demeanor and omniscient facade. Not a fool, but acts foolishly.
His compassion for the girl interests me. Of note is the fact that he shot at her to begin with, as he now works to heal the very same wound. Why shoot at all, if you will feel guilt over it? A reflexive action? A sudden change of heart? In our few words he seemed to dodge the question.
Must investigate further. His aim appears to be money and the avoidance of murder, else he would have killed Chamber when he stole his weapon, or would have killed Belt when first he shot at her. This limits him to the twenty everyone should posses, and the one hundred a weapon is worth. Explains why Belt has lost her weapon; likely scavenged by him and hidden due to encumbrance. Others' weapons are his lifeblood; can be used as bait, bargaining chips, punishment by confiscation, and the like. Taking his stolen revolver was a fortuitous move, it seems; likely he will not leave until he reclaims it. I should be cautious.
He is not an altogether worthless subject. I will humor him longer until his motives become more clear.
Belt - A curiosity. Engaged Powder in firefight and lost. Wounded, dazed, possibly knocked unconscious, but was not killed. Afterwards struggled in vain to drag herself somewhere while crying and whimpering. Currently nigh-oblivious to the outside world under post-traumatic stress or similar psychological condition, continues to cry and whimper even now, mumbling unintelligibly.
But why is she here?
Age likely early to mid teens; "young". Likely too young to truly understand the world, to understand past and future, life and death. Delusions of grandeur and heroism never die but are rarely acted upon. Young people are
capable of horrible and extreme things but are not usually
inclined to do so under normal circumstances. Clearly, her circumstances are not normal. Parents too protective, or not protective enough; parents are the television, or the bottle, or the belt (amusing coincidence if so). Any number of possibilities to create a different child with violent urges.
Why then the crying? The weeping? The apologizing? The pleading for help? A child strong enough to sign the contract in question
should have grown past such childish actions. They would bite their tongue and swallow their tears and put on a brave face, convincing themselves that they are not a child. It begs a question more of the one who reviewed Belt's "survey", likely the mysterious "sponsor" all eight of us have.
Why did the sponsor pick her, out of what must have been thousands of other surveys, and perhaps dozens or even hundreds of boys and girls her age? Surely there was no shortage of other children who said yes, that they would perform socially questionable acts if the reward was great enough. The very word "sponsor"--which I heard out of that woman's mouth and is written on the contract itself--implies that these people have something at stake; that they wish for their "contractors" to perform well. Belt's sponsor would not have offered her the contract unless this sponsor was certain Belt would rise to the occasion. They would not have knowingly picked a weakling or crybaby, someone who would give up all hope and cower after the first instance of true pain. Either something has not gone according to plans, or there is a very, very good reason I do not yet knew that Belt is exemplary. But why?
Why did any of our sponsors pick any of us? We are nothing. A college student, a crying teenager, a balding janitor, an old man, a misandrist with a chip on her shoulder. It does not even seem like we answered the survey in the same ways. What makes us special?
Find this answer, and perhaps one may come closer to answering the question of
who "they" are.
Must consider further. [ ] Try talking to Belt (topic suggestions welcome)
[ ] Try talking to Powder (topic suggestions welcome)
[ ] Shoot Belt in an extremity; see how Powder reacts
[ ] Shoot Powder in an extremity; see how Powder reacts
[ ] Kill Chamber. A wish might be useful.
[ ] Move elsewhere; position is compromised (Vote for all the below options)
--( ) Take Belt / Leave Belt
--( ) Let Powder come / do not let Powder come
--( ) Give Powder back (revolver/launcher/neither)
Switch… < > Clip
< > Chamber
< > Magazine
< > Bolt
< > Drum
< > Belt
< > Shell
< > Powder
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>>35504 >>35564 All right then, I guess I’ll just go with whatever makes for a better story, since there’s not a lot of strong feelings. Obviously I’m not cruel; if people die out of the blue, there will be a good reason for it. Just giving you the heads up that this is on the table now.
And yeah,
>>35564, I’m surprised people don’t call me out on my typos more. I make handfuls of them all the time and no one seems to notice, or they just don’t care enough to say anything. I would have caught these if I was caring, but I’m usually just too anxious to get the update out before I go to bed.
Not unlike right now.