EZMode !iIyIHD.1G6 2009/09/07 (Mon) 20:48 No. 93614 You spend some time flying to the next destination. You're not sure where it is that you're going, but you're being lead towards the youkai mountain none-the-less.
“I found a peaceful pond on the mountain there a while ago,” Yuyuko says, looking back at you. “It's a nice place, hidden in the shade.” You don't have anything in particular to say, but it strikes you as strange. You're not really sure when Yuyuko would have been to this mountain. She said she hardly leaves Hakugyokuro, and while you don't really know where she'd have gone before, you don't really imagine that she'd go exploring mountains. It's not that big of a concern though, and you soon chase it from your mind as you fly over the trees that line the mountain. A few minutes later and you're at the edge of a heavily wooded area, a thin stream of water runs into the pond, having split off from the river nearby. Even though it's still day, the area around the pond is a gloomy kind of dark from the trees overhead. Like Yuyuko said as well, it's rather cool here as well, unusually so.
“This is kind of an out of the way place,” you say, following Yuyuko into the area and to a large rock at the edge of the water, where she sits.
“That's what makes it good,” she says with a smile, looking out over the water. “This quiet place is nice to relax, listen to the frogs and watch fireflies at night. It's really enjoyable to just relax and enjoy nature like this.” You walk up to the rock and take a seat next to her.
“You must like nature,” you say, not really having much else on your mind. Yuyuko issues a breathy sigh.
“I enjoy life,” she says, leaning back on her palms. “Well, watching it. Seeing people and animals go about their lives as best they can, living to make the most of their short time, even if it ends up nothing more than a weak struggle against time.” Yuyuko's voice drops off a bit into a sad tone. “I've been around so long, known so many people and watch them live their life, have kids, grow old and die, and I never change. I feel guilty, to be able to cause death in the living, without really knowing what it's like to be dead.” You'd raise an objection over that last bit, but she still has a point. She's a ghost, still 'living' even though she's not alive.
“That has to be hard,” you say, attempting to console her. “I've only been dead for a little while, I guess I don't understand what that's like to be, well, eternal.” Yuyuko slouches a bit, looking at you with sad eyes.
“I'm thankful that you're here, the first real company I've had that I don't have to worry about dying on me,” Yuyuko says, a slight smile coming to her face. “Even though I say that, I'm sad for you. I don't want you to have to know the same feelings I've felt,” she continues, pulling her legs up onto the rock and hugging her knees. “I want you to enjoy a brief time to make sure you have no regrets in life before you continue on.” You feel a sinking feeling in your stomach.
“Yuyuko...” you manage to say, placing a hand on her shoulder.
“You don't deserve this,” she says, weakly trying to shrug your hand off. “Living on while everyone else around you dies and leaves you. Youmu too will one day grow into an old woman and die. Even Yukari might one day leave me, I'll always be here.”
“Why don't you, well, 'continue' on?” you ask, though you're hesitant to ask the question.
“I can't, I'm being punished,” she says. “I'm bound to live forever as a ghost for my sin.” Sin? Somehow you you have a hard time imagining that Yuyuko could have done anything like that.
“What kind of sin could you have commit to be punished for eternity?” you ask. Yuyuko seems to withdraw even more, sagging her head into her knees. She doesn't reply for a long time.
“I killed myself,” she says quietly, turning her head away from you. “I couldn't bear to live with the power I have, taking people's lives with selfish thoughts and irrational bursts of emotion. I was terrified of what I would become, so I took my own life to stop myself. For that, I'm bound to live forever as the princess of the netherworld. I can never be reborn.”
You don't know what to say to that, but you slide closer to Yuyuko and put an arm over her shoulder in a comforting gesture. She doesn't react at first, but after a minute or so she rubs her head against your hand.
“I'm a selfish person,” Yuyuko says. “I make constant demands of Youmu without ever doing anything for her, I run around and do whatever I please, worrying those around me,” she pauses. “I even made you come with me today to have fun, to keep memories of you with me forever so I wouldn't regret missing my only chance to truly feel happy when it's your time to pass on.” Once more you don't have anything to say, you just sit there with your arm around Yuyuko, trying to find some words you can say to make her feel better. How can you even deal with something like eternal punishment though? This goes beyond the physical, this would be more like universal law of life and death. Is there anything you could do? The answer comes to you after a while of thought, but it's difficult for you to say.
“Yuyuko,” you start, leaning forward a little. She raises her head slightly, looking towards you. “I'm sorry you've had to experience all you have. I can't even imagine how much it must hurt to live like that, watching anyone you might care for wither away in front of you. I'm sorry to say that I might not be able to help you,” you say, pausing for a second. “I want you to know though, that if I want to stay with you as long as possible. If I can do anything to make your life more enjoyable in my time, I'd be glad to... but...” you trail off, swallowing the lump in your throat. “If I could find a way to make you pass on, would you want to?” Yuyuko's expression suddenly turns to surprise, raising her head more. She's entirely lost for words, obviously, and you're already regretting saying it. Until she starts laughing, a quiet giggle at first, but quickly growing into full out laughter.
“Pass on?” Yuyuko asks, catching her breath once her laughter starts to slow down. “That's a nice thought...” Yuyuko smiles with a slight chuckle. “If I can't live forever happily, I'd rather rest in peace. I've seen too many people die upset with their lives, and aren't able to reconcile their problems even in death. I've been like that myself now for a thousand years, regretting my choices in life and wishing I'd lived a normal life.” Yuyuko looks back out at the water. “I'd have been able to be a mother and have a family of my own, finally dying as an old woman. I want to be reborn, to have a second chance at that kind of life.”
“I'm glad you didn't freak out,” you say, breathing a sigh of relief. “I was worried what you'd do if I said I would kill you, basically.” Yuyuko turns to face you, taking up your hands.
“It's a crazy idea, but please,” Yuyuko stops for a second, becoming serious. “If you can find a way to do it, please, please, put my soul to rest. I don't want to spend eternity alone.” You feel the lump in your throat again.
“I promise, if I have to, I'll put your soul to rest,” you say. Even hearing yourself makes it sound completely alien. Yuyuko however, smiles.
“It still sounds ridiculous,” she says with a smile. “It's also the most romantic thing someone's ever said to me.” Yuyuko leans in and gives you a small kiss on the cheek. She leans back, and looks down. “I'm feeling selfish again, I want you to stay with me forever now, be restless souls together.” You feel a whole new kind of lump in your throat.
“You know, the more time I spend with you, the more I think I might be able to enjoy that,” you say. Yuyuko leans in to kiss you again, but this time it's not on the cheek, and you don't just sit back and let her do it alone. You break away after a minute.
“That was a little sudden,” Yuyuko says, sounding suddenly embarrassed and blushing to match. You feel about the same.
“If I do stay, though, it'll be after I've done everything I can for anyone that needs help,” you say. “I've got a lot of people with problems to help still.”
“I understand,” Yuyuko replies, bowing her head. “I wouldn't want to hold you back from your calling.” Yuyuko sldies cloer and then leans into you, resting her head on your shoulder. With nothing else to say, you simply place your arm back around her shoulder and look out over the water with her. You don't know how long the two of you sit there just watching the pond, the frogs on the banks and the small fish swimming around beneath the surface.
“We came here to relax and ended up having a pretty serious conversation,” you say. Yuyuko hums in acknowledgement.
“It was worth it though, something nice happened,” she says. Your mind jumps back to what she said earlier, about her wish to be alive again so she could have a family.
“About something you said earlier,” you start talking. “About wishing you had a chance to have a family?”
“I was still quite young when I killed myself,” Yuyuko says. “I'm sure it's obvious, given how I look the same age. I was just barely an adult, but with how terrified I was of my power, I was afraid of getting close to anyone because I might accidentally kill them. I never got to have a relationship.”
“So would that be why you've acted like you did to me? Playing how you did and whatnot? Clumsy attempts at flirting?” you ask, though you think the answer is pretty clear. Yuyuko giggles a bit.
“I guess it was a bit transparent, but that's okay because I'm a ghost,” she says. “I saw a chance to feel like a normal girl again and I took it because I'm selfish.” You just smile and squeeze her, and Yuyuko responds with a hug of her own. “So if you don't mind, let me enjoy this happiness while I can.” You don't particularly have a problem with it. After another long while, Yuyuko sits up and stretches a little.
“You feeling better now?” you ask. Yuyuko nods.
“I feel a lot better, really,” she says. “We should probably head back though, I'm out of ideas for the day.” Yuyuko floats into the air off the rock, and you lift yourself into the air as well. Yuyuko starts to fly away from the pond, and you catch up to her, heading back into the air.
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Some time later you reach the top of the stairs at Hakugyokuro.
“I had a good time today,” Yuyuko says, floating ahead a little. “I think I need a bit of a nap.” Yuyuko drifts off on her own then, leaving you alone at the top of the stairs with no idea what do to with the rest of your time for the day.
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So that would be the end of that. Turned out shorter than I expected, but now we're back to voting.